She | Kelly Lubbee

Hands to Hold

There’s a new thing our daughter loves (and at times doesn’t really like) to do. We pour out all the pegs or her box of crayons and she, one by one, picks them up and places them into her right hand to hold onto. You can imagine the scenario as slowly but surely her hand cannot hold anymore of the items she tries to take hold of. Her hands are so small and can only hold 3 or 4 crayons or pegs but she’ll always try and squeeze just one more into it and this often leads to one of the others falling out of her hand or all of them dropping to the floor. And every now and then, a little tantrum because she can’t do what she wants to do.

One of the times she was doing this, I took a photo as I wanted to remember how I heard God revealing something to me of us in this moment. How He asked so clearly, as I wished she would stop doing this only to irritate herself, “But don’t you do this too?” Why, yes I do. Every. Single. Day. I see situations lying before me, stresses, plans, events, things to do, people to see, more and more things around me and I feel the urge to take hold of it all but only to end in a little meltdown when I drop something because I was taking on too much. Or I try and grip something else so tightly but then everything falls apart because I added one more thing to my “stuff”.

So I could question God in return and say, “OK. I do, but then what do I let go of?” and I know His reply would be very convicting and very hard to do in my own strength. “All of it.”

If God is who He says He is and I believe that as the scriptures say, “Surely My hand founded the earth, And My right hand spread out the heavens; When I call to them, they stand together” (Isaiah 48:13), then I believe that He is able to handle my everything and He will be able to command my life to take order under His will. Multiple times in the Bible we can pull out verses speaking of His hand that leads and guides us and this should bring comfort to us when we are unsure of what to say yes to and what to say no to.

The more we try and carry in our own capacity and strength the more we fail every time. This doesn’t mean that you’re a failure, it simply means that you need to ask for help. God has hands to hold – are you able to let go?